An Interesting Night

Wow...tonight got ugly.....from my host dad. I approached my host mom and apologized for the mix up that took place the last week when they didn't plan my vacation. She was really cool about it and admitted that she forgot completely, etc. I also mentioned if they could pay me weekly (as we don't have a contract...etc so I can be assured I am getting paid.) Well when the host dad came downstairs I approached him to apologize and he went off! He wouldn't let me speak a word and kept telling me not to talk and that he didnt want to talk about it! Finally I got a word in and said this involves me too..and its a big risk to wait till the end to get paid...and then he said loudly that its just a risk I will have to see and take and if I dont want to I can leave now. but Nina spoke up and was like...NO......but well I just left to go downstairs. He then came down and apologised but then got really personal and attacked the fact that I was leaving them just how I did my last family I worked for and all this for a boy I barely know to get married to...etc. and how everything was my fault and now he had to work holidays because of me..etc. Well...anyway needless to say they both emailed me now and are assuring me that I will be paid the full amount at the end of the month. Now the decision is up to me. I know I am a strong girl...and I have had ALOT ALOT ALOT thrown on my shoulders this past week. I got to a point I just thought it was too much to carry and felt SO helpless!! Too much pain and stress that my body just felt horrible. After much praying, fasting...and faith however it is amazing to say how much my burdens have become lighter..I know I am a strong person and I'm sort of leaning on finishing the goal that I originally set! If they do not pay me...its a big lesson I learned...if they do pay me..it will be a blessing as that money is really needed for future events such as travel to utah this fall or german classes. It may seem like the next 13 days will be a black cloud of thick smoke almost unbearable but I can handle it. If they promise to keep their end of the deal I will do my part. Now...this is what I say right now but I will pray about this tonight and see what I feel. Florian and I looked over what they say they owe me and it seems a little screwy that they are ripping me off quite a bit. They say they only owe 644 francs at the end of the month. I just dont know what to do.....let see how I feel in the morning.