New Start *again* haha

Lately, I have felt the need to be a bit better. It's sort of hard to explain but I think I could just be less lazy and more productive. I mean, I have the kids all day so one can only imagine why I would be lazy in the evenings, but its starting to get to where I am lazy in the day as well. I just sort of sit around all day with the kids and not really do anything productive. Facebook has become more of an addiction now (its horrible....but I will admit it..) and well...there simply is nothing else to do. When I want to take the kids out, it usually ends up being a day from you know where...its already like that here sometimes at the house. Kim won't listen to me now, and its getting worse...and Domi likes to bolt every time I turn around. I must admit though, Dominic seems to be drawing closer to me because the grandpa was here yesterday and Domi started to cry and wouldn't go to anyone else but me. *Interesting* but also heartbreaking. I love these kids so much, even when I get SUPER annoyed with them. Kim came up to me yesterday and made a card and asked if I would write on his card *since he doesn't know how to spell yet..* "I love Rachel very much" 

How cute!! I find it hard being an Aupair sometimes because of this reason, but I also know that this next job will be my last as an Aupair. It's way too hard to leave these kids once they are attached. 

Anyway, back to my laziness issues...I'm not exactly sure how to tackle it. I really believe though that once I move to Germany, there will be no time for laziness. I will be taking german courses 2 times a week, dance school on friday nights and the kids and family on the other days. Then of course will be going to church and if I recieve any callings there as well. I am so excited to be busy like this!! It will be nice. I will be really tired in the beginning, that I am sure of..but once I get the hang of it. There is something I will write about in a later blog (for those of you who don't know what it is...) about the Word of Wisdom and how health is viewed in my religion. It's really great and I think can benefit everyone, not just someone who is LDS or "mormon."  I will post the information later. :) I think if I am following this more, having a set routine of bedtime and activities that my life will be really great! 

As for mental things as well, I plan on ordering my textbook for school soon so I can start working on that! Life is really going to pick up soon. :D

One thing that is hard for me at the moment (even though to some....remaining annonymous ;)...dont think its very hard) but I'm struggling with a decision. When do I leave this current family? I know that I will be joining the family in Germany on the 14th of July but I can leave earlier to head up. This family here wants me to give them more time than 2 months to find an aupair or new solution once I'm gone...but well they have waited at least 5 to 6 months in trying to find a legal situation for me and its still not been done. SO.-- the delimna is...do I still leave early by the 27th of June or wait until the first week of July is over? I want to spend time relaxing, and being with Flo because I will be gone for a whole month to France with the new host family. well..any one want to offer their opinion on this? Its hard because I leave for a week at the beginning of June already for a vacation with Florian so if I left 3 weeks later would that be ok you think? I think thats pushing it but well they havent really made a strong effort anyway. OK well get back to me. :D