Decisions

Here it is, 6.30 am and I'm wide awake. Doesn't matter if I only got 6.5 hours of sleep, well according to my brain but my body says that I need another 4 at least. I have had quite a bit of stress on me lately and its all going to catch up soon. 

I have had alot of decisions to make in the past 2 weeks, and really important ones as well. 

So let me update you on what decisions I have made:

1st, I found a family in Dusseldorf that will take me on to work for them starting in July. 

2nd, I have told my current family my plan last night and it went really well, more than expected. 

3rd, its pretty much said and done. after making such big moves in this area I am sure I am getting married next year. If that doesn't happen, its back to the states for me. 

You know, life is full of choices, and if you just stick to what you know all the time, how is that truly living a full life? I believe that when you have dreams and goals, that you should always push yourself to achieve those and not sit around and live a day to day mediocre life just because it's "normal" or "reality." You have the power to make your dreams reality. As much as I loved Utah and the people, I must say that my dream has always been to live in Europe, and well when I got here, it was hard at times for sure and I have definetly had my homesick moments, but overall I was surprised at how much I really enjoy it over here. Alot of Americans have their "view" on Europe, but I can now say with full confidence that alot of those perceptions are wrong about it here. It really is alot like America here and I'm surprised, especially in Germany. They have SO much from America, people are people just like America only speaking another language. Sure, there are some aspects in the culture that is quite different, but each have the same goal just a different way to approach that. Once you open your eyes and learn that well, thats the beauty of this world, the differences...and when you embrace that is when I believe you truly are living to lifes fullest potential and not being ignorant. 

Making the decisions I have at this time have not been easy, alot of people are involved, yet at the end of the day I MUST create the life that I want to live for myself. It's not meant out of selfishness, its just that I know where I was happy and how I was happy before and I have to honor those feelings. It is absolutely impossible to please everyone with my every choice. Its amazing to see how I have been feeling in making the decisions I have towards Florian and this whole situation. I have included the Lord and my common sense in these decisions and I must admit, out of everything in my life, I have never felt so sure of something before. It's a bit scary sometimes but overall I don't fear. 

Just remember that you are the only person who lives life from your own eyes. Meaning nobody else can live your life like you can and its time you make what you desire. Don't allow anyone to hold you back.