I've been Tagged!!

I was tagged by my lovely cousin Tiffany so here it goes...

10 years ago...
1998 Ten years ago I was 12 and going into Young Womens. I lived in Dallas, Oregon and had a crush on a kid named Justin. *random*

5 years ago...
2003 I was graduated from high school and just moved to Orlando to go to school and live with my mom.

5 months ago...
March..was trying to get through school.

5 things on my to do list tomorrow...
1) Go get for sale signs for my car. 2) go to the gym, 3) work 4) practice piano 5) sleep.

5 things I would do if I was suddenly a billionaire...
1) Buy a house, 2) TRAVEL 3) buy NICE cars 4) go somewhere poor and build houses using my money 5) put money away for the future, i.e kids education

5 bad habits...
1) I rarely clean my room... 2) facebook at work 3) sleep in 4) spend my money on stupid things 5) skip going to the gym when I should.

5 places I've lived
1) Seaside, Oregon 2) Dallas, Oregon 3) Orlando, Florida 4) Provo, Utah 5) Salt Lake City, Utah

I tag...kari, Paul, and whoever else wants to.

Thoughts

I just need to blog again. Well, I can definetly tell the difference in when I take my medicine, and when I don't. Yesterday was such a hard day for me. I didn't take my medicine and I started to get angry over the smallest things. I hate relying on my medicine, but it really helps balance out the anxiety.
One thing I have been doing alot lately of, is playing the piano. I love it. It is my escape from the world. Something about a piano and me playing it releases so much emotion and allows my mind to take a deep breath. Most of you who play the piano, can probably relate. A friend of mine sent me a piece of music that I just LOVE. It is called "Le Onde" and it is amazing. I will try to add it on my music so everyone can hear it.
I guess, I am just frustrated with how things are going overall. I want to leave to Switzerland so bad, but at the same time I am going to miss SO much from here and it leaves me in a constant turmoil in how I feel about leaving. I am alone here at night so that is when I usually feel overwhelemed. The only thing I can do, is completely trust Heavenly Father in what he is preparing for me. I know I am supposed to go.
As for guys, I really like one in germany. *surprise* No, he is really fun to talk to, and I am sure we are going to have a blast hanging out for sure! He will be living 2 hours away from me (which I hope won't be a problem if we do decide to date) because traveling is expensive. Anyway, he plays piano like me, he likes the same kind of humor as me, he is cute, and just so outgoing which is great. So there is one reason I am looking forward to going to Europe.
I am frustrated here though in the sense that I have a friend of mine who is way fun! However, I feel like I am being pushed away so he doesn't get attached, when to me, I just want to go with the flow of life. No expectations in anything, and let the Lord guide me. I dont know, it kind of hurts when you feel someone pushing you away. That is life I guess. I do have to respect alot of friends feelings from here actually in me leaving. It is hard to loose a friend, especially for a year. I remember how I felt when my best friend Katherine left back home to Louisiana. It was hard, and I would find myself missing her and our good times. Anyway, overall I am just going with the cycle of life. I want to plan great things for my life but overall let the Lord guide it the way he wants it to go.
Ok, I should REALLY be getting ready for work. *yay*

Lonely Today

I just want to be with a guy who will treat me right soon. I guess I'm getting tired of being lonely. I keep seeing all these sweet couples around, and can't help but want that. I just want, for once, the guy to come sweep me off my feet, instead of me doing alot of work for it. Do the movies really come true in the sense of the guy persuing? I just want that experience with someone I like. *sigh* sorry for the sad blog today, just had to get it out right now. I hope this experience will come soon.