So I just got back from Dusseldorf yesterday and I am already missing it up there! I wanted to write a blog about my amazing week up there! I loved every min. I was there!!
When I arrived to Flo's house he took my coat like a gentleman and took my suitcase up to my room while I said hello downstairs. When I went up to my room I was greeted by a VERY pleasant and wonderful surprise. He had 3 long-stem red roses and a letter laying on my bed with the rose petals of one additional rose scattered around on the bed. :D :D :D I was shocked but really blown away! Thing that was even more special was I had told him a while back that I liked getting love letters *blush* and I didn't know that he took me serious. Well he did!! I wasn't allowed to read this letter until my departure, it was SO hard for me not to read it for 9 days!
So the first day I got there, Florian took me to this park where you can walk around this beautiful castle and then these fields and river and flowers, etc. Dusseldorf really is so beautiful with its parks and rivers! It was a really nice walk and we found a bench and watched the sunset and planes from the nearby airport fly by.
Well, the only real downer to my stay was that the first night I got sick!! I am pretty sure I ate something bad, because well that night wasn't the best. I even felt funny the next day as well so we took it easy and went shopping! :D However, halfway through the day I really felt like we should go back home because walking around like that made me feel sick. (BUT!!) before we went home we decided I needed to eat something, so we stopped at McDonalds(really healthy huh?) and we walked to a BEAUTIFUL park around the corner and had a fun little picnic on the grass.
On one of the days I was up there it was alot of fun to go to downtown Ratingen and have ice cream with his family. They serve ice cream big over here and I have pictures :) I couldn't eat it all! 
Florian, Desiree, and Emanuel
I also went and got my hair cut! That was so nice as I havent had it touched for 7 months so it was just a nice cut to shape it a bit, no color. It is really nice and I will post some actual photos of it being done up.
One of the highlights of being up there was Flo and I went to Cologne!! (finally!) We have been saying that we would go to Cologne everytime I have been up there and we never do (because I usually take a while to get ready...hehe) Well it was beautiful! The city had a certain cloudy haze to it, but the sun was still shining and we had a great time. We walked upstairs to the "Dom" which is a famous cathedral in Cologne. I have some pictures of us at the top. We then had lunch at....KFC!! Even though in the states I used to think it was the grosest place ever, I was SO happy to sit down and eat an american meal! Afterwards we walked around the shops and then went and sat next to the Rhine river which was very nice.
After climbing a CRAP load of stairs!!
Another highlight was our spontaneous trip to the Netherlands. We were hoping to go see the tulips blooming but we just went to a near town called "Venlo" and just hung out there. It was a nice little town and we ran into some friends from Florians ward. 
There were so many good times we had while I was there and I am just naming a few of them. I can't tell you enough how much I love to be around Florian and how we lift each other up. It doesnt feel like a constant need to perform or say something all the time, but simply being around him makes me happy. We laugh about so much and yet can have a spiritual or theoretical conversation about anything. Another thing he did for me while I was in the bathroom getting ready for the day one day, he took another rose and spread it on my bed with a little love note on it. :D
Well we are looking at a couple weeks from now for the next visit and then....we go to Norway at the end of May! I am so excited! :D
So often, and so many times in my life have I allowed myself to be beat down by fear, and miss opportunities or just worry myself to death! I think WAY too much sometimes and its really a curse!! (It's funny because some might say I don't think enough..ha but thats because so many things go in my head at once that I just pick one and do it...) I haven't stepped into a situation or possibility with both feet because of fear that things would go wrong, etc. 
